New
Pink and warm. 10 and 10. Looking at me with confused, blinking eyes. You can't see me, but you know me. I know you. Daddy was right. Our family wasn't complete, we needed you. You were waiting for us this whole time. Don't tell him, he loves to gloat.
Home
Busy noisy happy. Your sisters love you. Picking out clothes. Diaper changes. Bach or Mozart on your mobile. I love you. You feel so right in my arms when you nurse. I remember how much I love babies. The crook of your neck smells so sweet.
No
Doctor's office. Home. Doctor's office. Hospital. 92.7 degrees. Can you be so cold and still be alive? Open your eyes. Cry. Please.
Helicopter
Car
Hospital
Neurosurgeon
No neurological activity. I look at Daddy and we know. We've discussed what we would do for each other a hundred times. It's not fair. I think, no, if anyone gets a miracle it has to be her. Wait. Please.
I look at Daddy and know I'm selfish.
5:47, stopping.
Breathing
Crying
Talking
Planning
Love
Love
Love
Fewer breaths
12:52 peace for you my angel